Through a strange sequence of events, I guess none more strange than my “usual” life though, I started thinking about the differences of perception with regard to different illness types. There are the run-of-the mill illnesses: colds, stomach bugs, things like that. There are the “Oh Man! This person is sick!” illnesses: pneumonia, bronchitis – illnesses where casseroles are rushed to the rescue, kids are taken care of and a sense of “volunteerism” really kicks in. There are terminal illnesses – ones too awful to talk about – where everyone feels this sense of urgency to visit the person, lest their passing go without one last talk, one last “I love you”, one last hug. Then there are chronic illnesses: the “oh yeah, that person is always sick, they have . . . ” illnesses. They are the illnesses that are the easiest to ignore. The person isn’t “out of the blue mildly sick”, they’re not in dire need of help, they aren’t going to keel over anytime soon that you know of, and for reasons beyond my comprehension, they are the people who tend to just “suck it up” and realize that this is how their life is and deal with it.
This may sound like a “pity party” and that may be what it is. Then again, host a pity party and see how many people attend! I would like for this to be more of a “wake-up call” to those who have friends and family who have chronic illnesses. I would like for you to know – at least from THIS patient’s perspective – what people with chronic illnesses often need and want. Surprisingly, it isn’t much.
I was in the Emergency Room the other night. My husband helped me get into the traditional “hospital garb” because I was really struggling. As I’m lying on the gurney in one of the two-three rooms they reserve for “critical” patients, I’m scared. Really scared. Having been sick for over 8 years now, I have become very stoic about it. Joking puts everyone at ease, and it makes me convince myself that nothing is going to happen to me. I also put on my “medical practitioner” cap, stating things in very objective manner. It then makes me a “condition” rather than “a person who may have just had a stroke.”
Then the thing that sucks me right back into reality hits: my son walks through the door and curtains, worried look on his face somewhat masked by a smile. He says, “Hey Momma. How are ya?” BOOM. I’m human again. I am a human being with real feelings, with real fears, and with a heck of a lot of illnesses that are pretty threatening. I remember that I really AM fighting for my life here, and I see his face – back and forth from his childhood to the man standing there – and I once again understand why I fight so damned hard.
As the night went on, I was given medication for the seizures that I had evidently been having continually. Then, I was given medication for a headache – after I had asked for Advil – but it was something incredibly strong and it was through an IV port. It knocked me for a loop. A HUGE loop. I couldn’t stay coherent enough, “awake” enough, to remember to breathe. If this didn’t change, I was left with two medical interventions, neither of which sounded very pleasant. Also, once ventilated, you’re stuck in that hospital for AT LEAST two additional days.
As I’m lying there, I feel a tapping on my right hand. “Momma — MOMMA — wake up. You need to breathe.” I don’t know how long this went on, my husband on my left side, “Honey — come on, wake up — you have to breathe. Come on, take a deep breath,” and my son on my right side. As they held my hands, I realized that quite often more than anything the thing that people with chronic illnesses need most is human touch.
In October of 2008, when my son drove me to the Outer Banks to meet several friends, I ended up having some very severe seizures. One night, in particular, I remember that I was lying in bed, and my best friend in the world was lying right beside me. Brandon was lying beside her. There were times that one or the other would reach out and just put a hand on me – reassurement that I was okay and that I was not alone. There were times that something was said – maybe a joke – and a hug accompanied it. More affirmation that I am a human being with an illness. I exist.
What can you do that would help someone with a chronic illness the most? Surprisingly, it’s not clean their house, make them food — any of the things that you would immediately think to do. It is sit with them. Not in a chair BY them, but WITH them. Lie down with them. Fully clothed or whatever. It doesn’t matter whether your friend or family, male or female. It is not a sexual experience. It is a healing experience.
Ask the person if they would like to be held. Some do, some don’t. Sometimes they just want to lie beside you with their head on your shoulder. Sometimes they want your arms around them, holding them so that they know metaphorically that you will catch them if they fall. Sometimes all it takes is placing your hand on their arm.
Touch deprivation is a pretty devastating but often ignored aspect of chronic illness. Someone who has been out in the world for the vast majority of their life is “sequestered”, living a life with no human exposure. Touch has an amazing healing ability – far more than most would think. Touch lets you know that you DO exist because you can FEEL it.
If you know someone who has a chronic illness, possibly the best advice you can receive regarding what they need comes from an old commercial: “Reach out and touch someone.”